THERE WAS A TIME There was a time when I could talk to you so easily We would discuss the paths our lives were taking We shared so much together You held my hand when life seemed too hard to bear and gave me strength. I gave you my shoulder so that you could cry of love betrayed. There was a time when I could talk to you so easily Yet, miles and time seem to have changed all that We rarely share together. It seems that our paths have moved so far apart That even in this realm of high tech we still do not have time to share As we once did so long ago. There was a time when I could talk to you so easily. There is distance between us that I would like to change to bring us back to when we shared so much together For you to know that though there are miles between us My shoulder is still there for you to cry on My hand is waiting for you

FAREWELL There is the most gentle breeze blowing here beneath the shadow of the snowy peaks. The sun peeks out hazily, warming my back. The soft songs of the birds seem to mock my emotions. No time for tears or sorrow or anything anymore. Time has no meaning now. Minutes merge into days... into months.... into years. I have no direction, no desire to fill the seconds that tick by. Just the mountains and I remain... standing still as sentinels over the winding roads that lead far away from here. I have no reason to move on. You left this morning forever

ANOTHER SLEEPLESS NIGHT I left my window open tonight and turned the porch light on, So that when I awake from my dreams, I can look out into the rain and still see us there... You holding me in your arms, pulling me close to you as we dance, Hearing our own song through the rain, Laughing and kissing, Compelled to never let each other go... Finally the vision vanishes, We aren't really there... And we never were. We have never held each other, And we have never danced beneath the pale moonlight. Never felt the rain pour down and soak us... Together. Every day I see you, not where you are, But where I want you to be. I reach over and tenderly run my fingertips along the sheets beside me... where you should be. I long to feel your face, your chest, Feel your life's breath move in and out, As you lie there in gentle sleep. I move my hand to where I should feel your heart Beating steadily beneath my hand. I close my eyes and I can almost feel it. It seems that no matter what I do anymore, I envision your doing it with me, It's almost like you should be there And I sometimes just can't figure out why you aren't. I drive through through the streets, Hear one of our favorite songs on the radio, and almost speak to you, Like you are in the seat next to me, Sharing the music. I have even reached over, Placed my hand on the seat, and it almost felt warm, Like you had really been there. I long to take you with me, To hold your hand in the movie theater. To hear you laugh in the funny parts.. To cry with you in the sad ones. Go dancing with you, And sway as one body to the music. So close that our souls are almost touching. And healing... I need you so much, it seems. I wonder how I ever made it through a day, Without knowing you. All we have are our phone conversations, I know your voice so well, I could easily pick it out of thousands... I know your laugh, And even how your voice sounds when you smile. I have sometimes heard a tear in your voice... And all I could think about was reaching across this great ocean, that separates me from you, and wiping it away, Taking away your heartache, my heartache... It is all I think about. How can anyone be so lonely? And miss someone so much, Someone they have never seen... Never held... Never touched... I carry you with me... In this little place called my heart. You have become a part of me, a part that I never want to be without. So now I lie here... and listen to the rain falling outside my window. I look out and for a brief moment I see us there again. And then my gaze moves up to the ceiling, Searching for your smile. I close my eyes, And listen for your voice... and then I hear it... "Goodnight my love.." I open my eyes and look for you, But surprisingly yet again, I am still alone. And now here I am... Another sleepless night... Without you here

TAKE ME BACK Take me back to those early magical days and nights of whispered promises and special romantic moments. Back to the desert park, the bright stars reflected in the lagoon... on that magical autumn night... where our eyes first met across the distance, sparking an instant bond and a secret hope that we would somehow become close, and a part of each others' lives. Take me back to the crisp, snowy day, where we played like silly children in the campground, where we made angels, and a unique snow couple in the freshly fallen drifts of deep snow. Back... to that magical winter day, when we threw snowballs at each other until we were wet and cold but feeling the warmth and joy in being together. Take me back to passion filled nights, cuddling under a blanket as we watch the flames flickering in the woodstove, or watching a movie holding hands and sharing a giant tub of popcorn. Take me back to those cozy Saturday mornings, sunlight filling the kitchen, mouth watering smells of bacon in the air, as I make breakfast, and you would sneak up behind me to hug me, or kiss my neck. Those glorious memories of times shared... fears revealed in trust... future dreams exchanged... and promises made to each other... that this, our deep and special love, would last for all time. I miss those times of laughter and sharing... the times of tenderness or trials. I miss you. I miss our love. Take me back.... please?

LETTING GO What happened to that man and that woman that stood before God and swore to all the promises that it seems we never kept? Looking back now, it seems that from the beginning things started to change. I don't know if our ideas of what a relationship should be were different, or in reality we both fell short of each other's expectations. There is no one thing to blame. The sad part is that every year that has passed, so has part of us. Now has come a time for change. Though it is difficult to let go of the comfort of what we know and branch out into an uncertain future, we have come to the point where there's nothing left for us here anymore. We both know that. You have been such an important part of my life for so long, saying goodbye is the hardest thing I have ever had to do. Regardless of how we felt about each other in the moment, whenever I needed you, you were there, and I will miss not having you to turn to. We both deserve the chance to find happiness and joy in our lives. The future provides us with opportunity and hope. To stay where we are at now, and to keep hopelessly trying again and again will just add to the pain and sorrow when we will ultimately say goodbye. You will always be in my heart. You can't erase away the feelings of someone with whom you have shared so much; they are embedded on my soul. I have learned much from you, and I hope you have learned from me. But now is the time to let go and look towards the promise of tomorrow. My wish for us is that we find it in ourselves to let go of the hurt, not punish each other, and find true happiness in whatever that might be

LINING OF MY HEART Inside the lining of my heart, hidden away safe and deep are the memories I hold dear. Alone and all mine to share or keep secret. Thoughts, visions, and echoes all wrapped dear, the friendly glances, the warm smiles and knowing looks I've kept to remember. I've hidden the pain and covered the tears with laughter, hope and never-ending faith. Forgotten and yet easily remembered, Open and yet quickly closed, all remain in the lining of my heart. On cloudy blue days they stand at attention awaiting their call. They'll come fast or slow; some will meld together into one. Some are happy and some are sad, but all are intertwined with the common thread found inside the lining of my heart

When you awaken in the early hours of morning to the sounds of a spring thunderstorm Think of me. At that same moment, Ill be out there, somewhere, looking at the same sky, inhaling the sights and sounds of the lightning and thunder, the wind and the rain. Thinking of you. When the days are long and the nights are hot and you wonder if summer will ever end. Think of me. I'll be out there, somewhere, walking along a deserted beach, feeling the warm sand beneath my feet, the mysterious pull of the tide. Thinking of you When the leaves start to fall and the air is crisp and alive with the smells of autumn. Think of me. I'll be out there, somewhere, horseback riding along a riverbank, the wind blowing my hair and all my senses absorbing the world around me. Still, thinking of you. When the cold winter winds begin to blow and there's a hint of snow in the air. Think of me. I'll be out there, somewhere, sitting by a fire. Thinking of you. No longer able to hold back the tears----remembering how things used to be and trying to forget---what could have been.